Okay now that I have told you all how I love Easter and that I know that God will always be there for me, I think I am ready to tell you all about what is happening in my life. As many of you know, my husband lost his job in September. Now the events surrounding this will have to wait for another post. His losing his job put a finical burden on us. We struggled for many months trying to pay all of our bills and keep our house. With my paycheck, I was able to pay everything except the mortgage. It came down to food or paying the mortgage. We need to pay all of the other bills to keep us functioning. Devin used to be able to take Zelda to work with him, now we had to decide what we were going to do for childcare.
Devin got his SORA training. That is the security Officer Registration Act, so he tried to get a job as a night security guard. Through many job he finally found one at the Hamilton Mall. Now he doesn’t get many hours there now but we hope those hours will increase with time. I work during the day and Devin works at night. It’s hard because we don’t see each other a lot, but we are making it work.
Through this time, many people helped us that I will be forever grateful for. Devin’s sisters helped us get groceries when we didn’t have a car. My brother gave me his old car! He is am amazing brother. My parents helped us so much. I hope that one day I can do the same for my kids.
We have called our bank and talked with them many times during this process. We have sent finical information to them a few times and finally they tell me that they can’t help us. I asked them for help and they said no. First, they said that Devin needed to get a job and then they could help. Devin got a job and they still can’t help.
After a lot of deliberation, and tears we have decided that the best thing we can do is to sell our house. I am not sure what the outcome will be. I hope to find a good real-estate agent who can guide us in this process. I hope that I will not have to pay anything in the end, but I know that my credit has been damaged and it will take a long time to rebuild it.
We are trying to find a place to rent and one that we can get with our credit. One that will allow us to keep Penny and one that is in a good neighborhood. Say a prayer for us. I know that God is watching out for us and that everything will be okay. It seems that in times such as this I am closer to God than in times when everything seems ok and peaceful. I feel guilty that I have not been able to get to church, but it is quite difficult to take the two kids by myself. Devin works nights so he is tired in the morning.
Even though it may not appear that, this was a difficult post it was. We have been dealing with this for months and many of you had no idea. I was embarrassed to say anything. I know that many Americans are in the same situation that I am in right now but that did not change how I felt. I felt like I was letting my family down. I felt like I had this great house and I really wanted my kids to grow up in it. I had all of these plans for how to renovate that house and make it larger. In the end, God takes our well laid out plans and gives us another path. Though we sometimes go, kicking and screaming like children often do when their dads want them to do something other than what they are doing, we do go. God knows best and He knows the right path for us. We just have to take it. Who knows what the future holds? God is the only one who does and I am excited to see what he has planned for my family and me.